The Big Day

Tomorrow is the big day! My surgery will be bright and early starting at 8:30 am. I am having such a mix of emotions, mostly excited to be moving forward to the next steps. Tomorrow will be the first time in 6 months that we will find out how well the chemo worked. This part is where my hesitation lies, what will find out? I am feeling very confident in not only my medical team, but also my body! It has been working so hard to fight this cancer off and from what we know by breast exams, it seems to have responded very well to the chemo. 

About 6 months ago I found out the scary news of my cancer. My mom and I were talking this weekend and we recalled how far we (all of us impacted) have come. It was such a hopeless feeling at the beginning–hearing stage 3 and getting the PET scan back that it had reached my lymph nodes. I remember thinking I can’t be taken away from my boys!  Now however, we both cheerfully said we feel so hopeful! It has been a long journey and there is more to come, but we feel peace and we KNOW I am sticking around to watch my babies grow. 

Early on when Edwin was just 8 weeks old, my mom said to me, “God would not have given Edwin to you just to take you away from him.” I have held those words in my heart each day and have prayed for just that. 

So tomorrow we find out how well my body has responded to chemo and remove the remaining cancer (if any)! I can do this; I can handle the pain. I just want to get to the next step of recovery!

My Marigold…Moving on with hopefulness. I am so thankful my heart is filled with hope and has erased the feeling of hopelessness.