Post Surgery Update

I find it hard to write tonight in the midst of everything that is going on in the world around us. It is all so much bigger than hearing about the updates of my surgery and pathology report. My heart is heavy and I pray for peace tonight, and always. 

I do want to share about my surgery and results though, as many have been asking. My surgery went very well. It was very odd to have surgery during the Covid time. My dad just dropped me off at the door like I was going to my first day of school. I looked back at him, waved good-bye, and in I walked. All my doctors involved were great and things could not have gone smoother. 

The pain is real for this surgery. Drain tubes, bruising, and stitches. But, I am making it through. The hardest part is not holding my sweet babes. 1 week down, 3 to go, and then I will not put him down again. He is my daily dose of joy. 

My pathology report came back earlier this week. My surgeon said it was 99.9% excellent. The tumor that was in my breast was completely gone when she got in there. No traces of cancer. She also removed 2 lymph nodes. Both indicated cancer cells. One tested negative for cancer the other one tested positive. She said it was so small that it could not be seen by the naked eye. But, because of this, they worry there could be other cancer cells left behind. So, radiation is a must. Everyone says that radiation is as good as surgery, so with all my heart I pray this will finally take care of it.  The results were good, but not as good as I was hoping. 

I am worn out. 7 months ago, my body gave birth to a healthy baby boy, and without fully recovering, just 8 weeks later my body endured 16 rounds of chemo, followed by an intense surgery. My body is tired. And  when my body is tired, my mind is even more exhausted. I will be starting radiation in 3 weeks, and by then, I hope to be rejuvenated. 

My Marigold is that even though my pathology report did not come back squeaky clean as I hoped, my main tumor was gone. Things are working, but I guess my body just needs a little more time to fight this dang cancer off.  I will do it, I have to. There is no other option.